I Don't Want to Be a Charmboy【Quick Wear】

Chapter 270 The Miao Youth is a Proud Male Supporting Role (47) Jin Xu'an Extra

Love that grows under power will ultimately have no good results.

——Jin Xu'an

I, a heinous criminal, killed my own lover with my own hands and spent the rest of my life in regret.

I am selfish, vicious, mean, and cruel. It is so ironic that I also long to be loved.

I looked down on myself a little and felt that I didn't deserve any warmth.

My original name was not Jin Xu'an. My name was A Yu, which was the name my mother gave me.

I have never seen my mother. An old maid told me her name. She said my mother was a gentle and kind woman but she did not have a good end.

I am an abandoned person, hated by everyone, and born sickly.

My father is an emperor with supreme power, but I have nothing and can only be bullied by others.

I once saw how much my father doted on his youngest son, and I became mad with jealousy. I knew that no one could have what I didn’t have.

I found an opportunity to lure my so-called brother to the lake, and let him fall into the water and die.

I didn't have any fear, I even felt happy.

No one knew it was me who did it, I retired with my success, I was only ten years old at that time.

I have unparalleled talent and ruthlessness, and I am destined to be the future king of this country.

Later, I cooperated with others. After all, there were not many people who could compete for the throne. I looked easy to control and I got support.

But they don't know that I am actually a poisonous snake.

The emperor’s sons are either dead or stupid. I just need to show up in time but not show any desire for the throne, then I win.

That's the fact, my father gave me most of the power.

I killed those who knew my secret, and I never hesitate to do anything.

No one knows what I have done. I am just an innocent prince.

Later, I fell ill and the poison in my body broke out. I hid all the news and secretly looked for an antidote.

The poison in my body is Gu poison, and I can only find someone from Miaojiang to cure it.

But those people refused to be persuaded, and I have always been arrogant and mean, so I killed them all and took their blood, fearing that there would be trouble in the future.

I was very angry because the medicine was not found.

But at this time, I met someone.

The man always had curved eyebrows and a gentle smile, and looked like a nobleman. He said his name was Fu Shen.

I don't know why, but I can never soften my heart towards him.

He told me that I wouldn't live past 25, and for the first time I felt heartbroken, a strange feeling.

But that man deceived me and wanted to kill me.

I laughed at myself, how could someone like me have friends?

He said there was a feud between us, and what came to my mind was not fear or disgust, but panic, panic that I would never see him again.

I never thought that someone like me would care about someone's life or death and be afraid of losing.

But that's the fact, I'm panicked and scared.

He was badly injured because of me.

That day, I searched for him furiously. I didn't know why I was doing that, I just wanted to find him desperately.

I'm afraid he will die. What should I do if he dies?

I don't know, I just know that I don't want him to die.

But that night, I searched every corner, but found nothing.

I waited in the inn here for a long time, unwilling to leave. I couldn't believe he was dead.

Until one day, he showed up, in front of me in disguise.

I want to laugh. He may not know that anyone who knows him a little can recognize him. He is too unique, with a temperament and spirit that is unparalleled in the world, which is what he yearns for and likes.

But they have a grudge against me! It doesn't matter, at least they haven't forgotten me, so what does it matter if they hate me?

It was a long time before I saw him again, several months had passed.

He was looking for a partner named Ajing to discuss something, but unexpectedly he happened to run into Ajing's wedding.

I heard from others that A Jing was married to a man. I was in a trance, and something in my heart burst out. At that moment, I realized that I liked Lin Shen, regardless of whether he was a man or a woman.

But they had no chance.

After taking a few sips of wine, I unexpectedly heard that the person A Jing was going to marry was Lin Shen.

Lin Shen? Fu Shen? I was filled with panic.

I rushed into the so-called bridal chamber and saw the face that had made me think deeply that day.

He was wearing a bright red wedding gown with half of his chest exposed. He was so beautiful and bright that I couldn't take my eyes off him.

Maybe the first glance is amazing, but the second glance is annoying.

I'm going to kill whoever dared to do this to him. I have a falling out with that person.

But in the end we are still facing each other.

I left and I never saw him again for a year.

My power is growing, but a new force has emerged in the underworld that specializes in killing powerful people.

And most of those people have close ties with our Jin Kingdom.

My father asked me to wipe them out so that he would feel at ease and give me all the power.

I was moved. Power is the best thing.

I found those people with a heavy force.

When I saw him in red, I was stunned. It was Lin Shen. Just by looking at his attire, I knew he was from Miao.

At that moment, my eyes were filled with panic and helplessness. I knew it was over, and there was no chance at all.

It’s okay, I comforted myself, I can just take him back and hide him, my father won’t know. Even if he knows, it’s okay, at worst I won’t want anything.

But he hated me because I took the blood of his people in a despicable way. I really hated myself.

We fought, and he stabbed me in the shoulder without hesitation. My heart ached terribly, more painful than the pain in my shoulder blade.

I can't do anything at all.

When I saw the sharp sword piercing his chest, his face turned pale instantly.

I covered my shoulders and trembled. Looking at his appearance, my eyes turned red and my nose felt sore. I wanted to cry so much. I thought I would never cry in this life.

But why do I want to cry so much now?

He was taken away by A Jing. I didn't know what I felt. I lied to myself that it didn't matter, because he hadn't taken revenge yet and he would definitely not die.

But I waited and waited, but nothing happened.

My world became empty again, leaving only the emptiness of power and endless longing for him.

Later, I found A Jing. He was hiding in a remote cave, looking like a madman and unkempt.

It was not until that moment that I learned that Lin Shen had died and truly left this world.

What should I do if he dies?

I was in a trance and cried for a long time. Tears seemed to be my only outlet. My heart felt like it was torn apart.

My condition became worse due to sadness and guilt, and I was bedridden all day long.

During this period, I met Su Hebei, who seemed to be a friend of Lin Shen. His eyes showed the same love and regret for Lin Shen as mine.

I knew he was coming to kill me, but in the end he didn't. He chose to let me live in pain and told me not to see Lin Shen because Lin Shen didn't want to see me.

I became the emperor, but I knew I would not live long. The disease had completely eroded my body. I was already terminally ill and bedridden.

In this position, I feel the emptiness and loneliness of power. I can never get what I want.

Later, the cavalry of the Shang Dynasty rushed into Chengdu of the Jin Dynasty, and I laughed and cried.

They told me that as long as I had the green mountains, I would never be short of firewood, and advised me to leave and conserve my strength.

But I don't want to leave. I've lived enough. For me, living is the most painful thing.

I lay on my sickbed, looking at the ceiling, thinking back on my life, which was full of regret and remorse.

"Power, there is nothing to use..."

"The Jin Kingdom was destroyed——"