strictlysupreme Chapter 185: Have you thought about it?
Chapter 185: Have you thought about it?
"unhappy?"
Ruan Qingqing was sitting on the tree trunk, looking up at the moon through the gaps in the leaves. Hearing the sound, she tilted her head to look at Wushang who was standing under the tree.
"That's it!"
The cool breeze blew slowly, dispelling the heat around Ruan Qingqing and gradually calming her inner irritability. The croaking of frogs around her also sounded a little more pleasant.
"Here, let you play with it. I heard girls like this."
After a moment's silence, Wushang took out a gauze bag from behind him and threw it towards Ruan Qingqing.
Ruan Qingqing saw a glowing object flying towards her and she reached out to catch it easily.
"If you don't like it, just throw it away!"
Wushang swallowed hard.
Ruan Qingqing was looking at the bag of fireflies in her hand. When she heard this unexpectedly, her eyebrows slightly curved.
"Fireflies are not easy to catch, especially there are so many of them. Thank you, Wushang!"
"As long as you like it!"
Wu Shang sighed secretly.
Ruan Qingqing jumped down from the tree nimbly and smiled at him.
"Let's go release fireflies!"
"Huh? Oh, good!"
Wushang followed behind mechanically.
"This should be a good place to release fireflies. Wushang, come on! Let's go together!"
Ruan Qingqing handed the gauze bag into Wushang's arms.
"I say one, two, three, and we'll open the bag together."
"Oh, okay!" Wushang clumsily pinched the other end near the bag opening.
"One, two, three, open!"
Ruan Qingqing and Wushang exerted force at the same time, and as soon as the bag opened, the fireflies inside rushed out of the bag.
“Haha, it’s out, it’s out!”
In the open wilderness, her laughter sounded especially clear.
Wushang's mouth corners couldn't help but curl up, and the uneasy heart was also soothed by this laughter.
After the last firefly flew out, Ruan Qingqing looked up at Wushang with bright eyes.
"I love the feeling of being free from restraints or cages."
Wushang's mouth corners also widened a little.
"Wu Shang, thank you! Just don't catch fireflies for me next time."
Wushang’s gaze paused.
The evening breeze was still blowing. Ruan Qingqing faced the direction where the wind was coming from, closed her eyes, and felt the cool breeze on her face.
"My parents wanted to arrange a marriage for me, but I disobeyed them. For the first time, I told them clearly what I thought: I don't want to get married."
"why?"
The hoarse voice trembled slightly in the evening breeze.
Ruan Qingqing was still lost in her own thoughts.
"Nowadays, men who have decent family backgrounds and no flaws basically have many wives and concubines. I don't like this." Ruan Qingqing gently opened her arms and let the wind blow her shorts. "Besides, once you get married, you have to revolve around your husband and children. You regard your husband and children as your God, and you no longer have a self. This kind of life is like a big cage, which binds us women tightly. We live a life that can be seen at a glance. I don't like it."
"So what kind of life do you like?"
"Like the wind, free and unfettered! But we who live at the bottom of society are always shackled with layers of shackles. I have no choice but to do my best to break free of them one by one.
The first shackles that were put on me were poverty and disunity. We finally saved some money and worked hard as a family, but then a pair of shackles called natural disasters fell from the sky. I used all my skills to survive the disaster, and as I watched everyone's life getting better and better, war and famine followed.
The next shackles may be the ties of family affection. Maybe it will be the current concept, maybe it will be the gossip around you..."
"Perhaps you will meet a man who is willing to take only one scoop from the vast sea; perhaps you will meet a man who only hopes that you can be as gentle as the wind..."
The hoarse voice was intermittent in the wind.
Ruan Qingqing glanced at him sideways and chuckled.
"Maybe! But I think that's a very low probability event. I will never bet my whole life on such a tiny possibility. I finally came to this world once, and I want to live according to my own ideas and live happily. Even if I get hurt, sad, and not understood, at least I won't regret it, at least I haven't let my time go to waste, that's enough!"
"Don't always dress yourself up as a soldier about to go to the battlefield. A young man should be lively and unrestrained like a young man!"
"Isn't it a testament to the vitality and recklessness of a passionate young man to fight on the battlefield and kill the enemies with pleasure?" Ruan Qingqing tilted her head to look at him.
Wu Shang stammered, "I mean you don't have to make yourself too hard!"
"Haha, you're wrong! When you break free from one cage after another, all that surges in your heart is the exhilaration of being reborn, without any sense of hardship. Only those who cower in a cage and feel resentment and self-pity will feel hardship all the time."
"You always come up with a bunch of crooked ideas. I can't argue with you!" Wushang said sullenly.
"Haha, it's not a fallacy, it's the truth, believe me! For example, if you get rid of the shackles of your ruined face and live your true self, you will find that the world is wide and the human heart is crowded. The people who care about you and are on the same side as you are the ones you should keep in your heart. The secular perspective, the shock and contempt of mediocre people are really not worth your attention."
"I never cared about those." Wushang looked away and said in a muffled voice.
"I'm not teasing you anymore. By the way, you disappeared for a while before, and I thought you were gone!" Ruan Qingqing turned around and looked at him.
"I just left for a while to take care of some personal matters." Wu Shang turned his face away unnaturally.
"I have said before that you will be free after the war is over. Now the barbarians of Xiyu Pass no longer dare to harass our Yunqing, the cancer among the soldiers of Jialing Pass has been eliminated, and Qingrong has been terrified. The six countries should also gradually stop fighting, and this war is coming to an end. There is no possibility of any military disaster here for the time being, you can leave.
As for the life-saving favor you owe us, you have done a lot for us during this period of time, and it can be offset long ago. You no longer owe us anything."
"Are you chasing me away?" Wushang's voice was muffled.
"Since you've been away for a while to take care of personal matters, I think you must have remembered something, right! In that case, you shouldn't tie up your whole life here just to repay your gratitude. It's not worth it and there's no need." Ruan Qingqing said seriously.
"Do you think I can still have my own life like this?" Wushang lowered his head.
“Why can’t I have it?”
"People like me will always encounter all kinds of pointing fingers and gossip when walking in the sun. It's troublesome! It's better for me to stay with you and be a guard hidden in the dark. It's quiet and comfortable."
"Have you thought about it?"
"Think about it!"